Nakakamiss rin yung may sinesave na messages sa folder. Yung tipo ng messages na papakiligin ka araw-araw pag binasa mo. Hindi man araw-araw nadadagdagan, pero pag nagtext na yung taong yun, bigla ka na lang mangingiti. Tatawa habang magkatext kayo. GMs.. Pahaging na text messages. Lulubog lilitaw na tao. May namiss naman ako bigla. Actually lagi ko naman naiisip yun eh, he’s always a part of my prayer. 

Anyway, that was part of my old life. :) The man I’ve never seen but I’ve really loved.

I will show you some pictures of two loving dogs who actually became a part of my life. 

This is Alex. She was the first fluffy dog I’ve ever had! Cross breed ng shih tzu and terrier. Mag 2 years old na siya sa July. For me, siya yung asong napakakulit pero napaka-sweet. Active, playful, hindi tamad, kasi yung ibang shitzu tamad eh.. Pag time ng kulitan, talagang ang hirap niyang pahintuin. Medyo maarte kasi minsan gusto niya susubuan pa siya kumain. Pag nakakita ng pusa, nagsisimula na siyang ma-highblood at magwawala. haha! One thing that I love about her is pag kinakausap ko siya, talagang akala mo naiintindihan niya yung sinasabi ko kahit hindi. Aww. Sarap yakapin, lalo na ngayon kasi para na talaga siyang malaking stuff toy lang. Maselaan sa pagkain, ayaw ng kanin lang, ayaw ng gulay. Haha!

Si SUSHI, na panandaliang tumira sa bahay for 2 weeks. Cross breed ulit ng Japanese Spitz and Terrier. Dinala siya sa bahay mag-1month pa lang siya kaya medyo nakakaawa rin. Akala ko kasi talaga dito na siya titira kasi yun ang plan namin ng pinsan ko. After 2 weeks, binawi rin siya dito. :( Kahit na ganun lang kaiksi yung time na naspend ko para kay Sushi, di talaga maitatanggi gano ko kamahal yung mga nagiging pet ko. Lalo na yung time na nagkasakit siya. I never left her. Yung time na suka siya ng suka, alalang alala ko talaga. Yun pala hindi lang natunawan. Siguro dahil na rin sa katakawan. haha! 

For me, napaka-playful rin ng tutang ‘to. Ang lambing din, pag dito ako sa baba natutulog, gigisingin ako niyan kakagatin niya yung buhok ko. Hilig niyang mangagat talaga ng buhok. Tapos pag matutulog na siya, dun siya sa tabi ng higaan. :) Sobrang miss ko na din talaga ‘to. Ngayon nasa bahay na siya ng pinsan ko, okay na rin siguro yun kasi pag nagkasakit, ayoko talagang makita siyang nanghihina.

Sobrang mahal ko ‘tong dalawang aso na ‘to. :) Para rin naman silang tao, may feelings din yan. Marunong sila magselos, umiyak, nasasaktan, may mga nararamdaman din yan. Kaya sana alagaan natin mabuti kung may pet man tayo. Le t us be a good master to them. Disiplinahin ng maayos, wag yung brutal. :) Orayt.

So blessed. So happy! Overwhelmed with what I have experienced earlier. God is great! I can see that God is really transforming our lives now. Began to speak in tongues, grabe! Totoo palang kusa na lang lalabas sa bibig mo yung ganung language, and you just can’t control and contain it. Thank You Lord that you filled me with your Holy Spirit. Supeeeeeeeeeer! Iba talaga! Totoo nga~ Ang saya sayaaaaa! Excited for tomorrow, the continuation of our VWE. I hope to see more of the young people’s lives be changed and transformed by the power of God! 

Her name is “Sushi”. 1 week pa lang siya nandito samin pero sobrang pag-aalaga ginagawa ko sa tuta na ‘to. 1 month old pa lang siya kasi, binigay na siya agad. Last Saturday, she accidentally ate a piece of chicken bone. Though medyo malambot naman, kasi yung part na yun ng hita is malambot, yun masarap ngatngatin. Dapat kasi sa isang aso yun, nagulat ako nung nakita ko siya nachochoke na. Hindi ko talaga alam gagawin ko. Nalunok niya pero dapat pala tinanggal ko na lang. :’(

Sobrang naaawa ako sa kondisyon nya ngayon, nagsusuka then nagLBM pa, pero ngayon okay na yung poop nya. Kaya lang sumusuka pa din. May times na sobrang lakas niya talaga, after a long hours of sleep, lumalakas ulit siya, nakikipaglaro, nanghaharot, then susuka, manghihina na naman. :( *naiiyak ako*

Ayokong mamatay siya, pero kahapon todo bantay talaga ko sa kanya, dinala ko pa siya sa vet at walangyang vet yan. Abangan ko na lang daw mamatay. Mangiyak ngiyak ako nun sa jeep, kasi ayoko lang talagang makaranas ng alaga ko yung mamamatay. Ayoko talaga. :( Gusto ko na lang sana siya ibalik sa pinsan ko para if ever mawala man, di ko na makikita. Ngayon pa lang mamimiss ko na si Sushi. Kahit 1 week lang ung pag-aalaga ko dito, talagang iba. Masyado lang talaga siguro akong mapagmahal sa mga aso. Hayz..

Is there any possible remedy for this kind of situation?

Eto yung view sa may kwarto namin. Puro bubong pero banda dun eh ang peaceful ng dating. Pag sa gabi naman, kitang-kita ang buhay na buhay na mundo ng Maynila. Ang saya rin dito sa bago naming nilipatan. Malayo nga lang pero peaceful naman. Minsan nakakatamad umalis dahil kada aalis ako para akong umaakyat ng bundok. Ang sakit sa legs! Pero exercise na din. 

Another thing that made me happy despite of so many problems is this. I am so privileged to be part of this ministry. I believe that each one of us has their own God’s calling. I am so blessed that I passed the assessment last Tuesday. After a 5 week training, here’s the reward! And I thank God for Pastor Bong for imparting us the biblical principles about being a true worshiper. As well as the other members of the music team for being so supportive in us. All of us passed the assessment and a large number of worshipers were added! :) Well, I’m so excited to serve and lead the congregation as they worship God. All for your glory!

We feel awkward to God when we ought to think of those unforgivable sins we have done. But through Jesus, we come to know God. 

That’s the main point of our topic in v-group awhile ago. We shared a lot of things, experiences, lessons.. There are some circumstances in our lives that we can’t avoid and sometimes it feels awkward. Most especially when we have sinned, and after that all you can feel was the guilt in your heart. You sin, repent, sin, repent, sin again and then repent.. It’s just like a cycle and it will come into a point that you will feel you’re so far away? You will feel awkward towards God because you think you are UNWORTHY. 

Yes, all of us are unworthy, jsyk. Even I, am unworthy. But what makes me unworthy now was when I got to know Jesus. That unworthiness you feel, I also felt that when I came to know Jesus and accepted Him. (Realizations like.. I am unworthy yet He accepted me.) God is unchanging. God’s love is unchanging and never ending. He loves us no matter what we have done even if we’re against Him. It’s not God who is turning His back on us, but it’s us who is turning away from Him. He never tolerates sins. Once He had forgiven us, He won’t even remember what you have done. That’s how amazing God is. 

I’ve learned a lot awhile ago. Thanks Janica and Kat for imparting God’s greatness to us.

Thank God for letting me pass the Music Team Audition! Thank You for those overwhelming comments. Lalo na si Pastor Alfred, one of the pastors that I adore. Grabe, Lord! Thank you for giving me this gift and I claim that you will let me use this according to your will and purpose. Ang saya eh! For the music team, salamat sa pakikisama sa boses ko. HAHA!